Tick Tock

Still waiting. Ho hum. I keep thinking I feel some period symptoms but they're either something else or my imagination. Then I forget for a few days and go about my regular days. I can't decide what I want to do. The doctor said she would phone if anything unusual showed up in my blood work and I've heard nothing so I assume its all good, which is encouraging in a "no news is good news" kind of way. She also said come back in a month if still no uterine action for the progesterone dose. Before I went in to her, I was pretty adamant that that isn't what I wanted from her at that appointment, but the more I think about it the more that looks like a viable option. What did I say about patience? Yeah. Not much in Bonzette's stomach. I would like to blame it on our fast paced, gimme gimme society but that wouldn't be honest, and if you can't be honest on the faceless internet, where can you be? I like results, damn it, the sooner the better. My mom would say that the universe is trying to teach me some kind of lesson with this waiting game. I really want to chill out and learn it but I also really want a baby. I want to move into this new phase but it isn't up to me. Not the conscious me, anyway. So come on, Uterus Girl. I'll give you a chocolate....