Dare I hope?

I am repeatedly aware of the irony of my situation, waiting expectantly, hopefully for the unpleasant and uncomfortable signs of menstruation. I wonder if this relishing the cramping and bloating is what happens to teenagers who have a pregnancy scare, at least for a while. Thankfully I never really had one.

The last two mornings I have had about 10 minutes of internal heaviness and cramping. I thought the first time that it may be ovulation pains but I'm not sure that they would last more than one day if that were the case. Still no actual progress but for whatever reason I'm feeling pretty good about my chances over the next little bit. We'll see....

What a difference a month makes - oh right, none.

You got it. No change. I was at the naturopath last Friday and he said "So you've obviously had a period, probably two since I last saw you", to which I raised my hand and replied "Excuse me, sir, but that wouldn't be quite correct. Still footloose and period free." Argh. AND, my lazy liver is up to its old antics again, too. I have been feeling fine (except for Friday itself, but I find I often feel less than 100% when I have a naturopath appointment for some reason) but my liver has regressed rather significantly. In sum, 15 months later all systems are still screwed. You all may be skeptical but I still have faith in good old Dr. L. I may have said this before but until he tells me he can't think of anything else to do, or some other revelation appears to me, I'm going to keep it up. At least I'm now on one set of herbs only - the fewer pills the better as far as I'm concerned. Less to cart around with me. Next appointment at the end of September. Fingers crossed for progress.