Patience is a virtue I am not fully familiar with

I like results. I guess that comes with the territory of having a fairly strong type A personality, but once I decide something should be I want to to happen. So when I went off the pill I wanted things to kick into gear right away. I'm pretty clear that you can't force large-scale nature to do anything so why should you be able to dictate what happens in small-scale nature? Why indeed. So much for my plans - two weeks late and still no sign of a period. Grrrr. I was so impatient that when I was last at the naturopath (as an aside - it must look like I go to the naturopath all the time but I don't. I think it's a common discussion subject simply because I'm trying to get my body on track in general but particularly to make it baby ready) I asked him whether there was something homeopathic I could do to re-regulate my cycles or whether it was better to let my body come to it naturally after being medicated for so long. He said the super natural way could take up to a year so there were definitely naturopathic options to get things moving a little faster. He gave me a homeopathic remedy made from a derivative of the ink of the cuttlefish. It's supposed to help with the side effects of the birth control pill, which he thinks my lack of period essentially is. I have 80 pills, one a day, but I have high hopes that it won't take that many. We'll see. It's going to take more than 6 pills, I can tell you that much. I thought I felt a twinge of cramping today on the bus so maybe things are slowly coming around but I'm not holding my breath.

I think another part of the problem is that I'm nervous about trying to conceive, which is a state we haven't even gotten to yet but why not worry about it now? I'm already a bit nervous about the unknown and also because I know how many people do have troubles conceiving, and then add to that a feeling like my non-periodness is a sign of being broken and it makes for some anxiety. As if life weren't stressful enough. I really need to learn to relax.

Come on cuttlefish!